So my latest lusts are these bad boys. I can't say i've ever spent £70 on a pair of shoes before, but for these cuties, I think I am willing.

I don't know what I am thinking, am I actually doing a post on my blog. YES. I have decided to update you all (I know no one actually looks at this shit, saying 'you all' just sounds better) on my LIFE, as you know it. I have been pretty busy, for once, so that is the reason for me neglecting my fanz (yes that is a zed and I should know better).

So, it was the first of November yesterday. November is one of my favourite months, but like Michael McIntyre said people spend the whole of November saying, 'wow I can't believe its November' Yes, there are ten months and then comes November, you know after October? That reminds me, seeing Michael McIntyre in concert is definately on my list of things to do in 2011. This year I am actually pretty excited for Christmas, I haven't been excited for it for the past couple of years, because I always miss the people i've lost. Im working Christmas day and i'm also hoping i'll be able to do a shift at Samaritans (I would MUCH rather do that than overnights bizzarely). This is not my photography.

I love Katie Waissal from the X Factor, I don't watch the show, but the acts I want to see I look up on Youtube. To be honest im not crazy about her singing, but I love her outfits and she is absolutely stunning. Thought id balance out my blog abit, thought I needed a shallow post after my 'Samaritans conference' one.

I woke up this morning rocking the La Roux look, I feel priveliged to reveal it here.

Listen to Best Coast.

Ellie Goulding is too cute. I laaave her! I need to purchase her album asap.

Two weekends ago I went to Samaritans 50th annual conference weekend. I'd been told afew months previous about this weekend and about 'Sophie Andrews' (the chair of Samaritans, shes the one on the right). I was told she was a Samaritans caller and wrote a book about her life, and that is was an extremely poignant story. Intruigued, I borrowed the book from a fellow Samaritan (I blogged about the book a while back) I read the book in three days. Bla bla bla. SO, the book fucked me up abit and then I was insanely hestitant and apprehensive about meeting her at the conference. I attended the conference as planned, when we arrived we all had a formal welcome by Sophie. Although this particular situation isn't likely to be seen as emotional and overwhelming, it was. I can't explain how I felt as she stood behind the microphone, poised so collectively delivering her well thought out piece. I think an immediate sense of envy flowed through me, I envy her courage and thirst for life which she clearly presented to everyone as she showed her appreciation of our attendance. A woman driven by such sad circumstances completely turns the potentially life ruining experiences into life changing actions. Later on that night I walked past her in the corridor, as soon as I saw her I was telling myself 'go and speak to her, go and speak to her', it took all my strength to manage to walk up to her and speak to her than I can ever begin to explain. I walked up to her and told her how much I admire her, sounding like a complete twat also confessing how long I had been stood outside trying to pluck up the courage to speak to her. She asked me about why I became a Samaritan etc and gave me a hug. I felt honoured to be in the same room as her, for her to speak to me and show such care meant more than anything in the world. I am crying fucking writing this, words cannot explain how much meeting Sophie and learning about her life story and learning about her new life overcoming such a horrific childhood changed my life.

I cannot express how excited I am for series seven of Peep Show. Omfg. Take me now mitchell and webb.

I've just been having a very 'sex and the city' style think. I was sat eating my chicken soup thinking about relationships and how much analysing I do when I become involved with someone new. I spend so much time analysing myself and even more so, the other person, trying to work out what they're about and what kind of person they are and why. Although I realise bringing up their 'ex's' isn't appropriate if done 5864 times in a day, I tend to find it very difficult not to, I seem to enjoy condradicting myself but ill continue... I think its very interesting and educating to hear about their ex, 1. so I know how they treated them 2. to know how they tolerated it 3. how time was spent together 4. how close they were eg arguements etc. All this is very intriguing while at the same time, shouldn't every relationship be a new beginning and a new start on both parts? I think every relationship shapes our next one, influencing it massively, and we change so much. I don't know how to conclude this, and to be honest this blog has NO real hypothesis but I think I just needed to write all this bullshit down. Have a nice day!

Who cares that I like to search for hours on the internet for beautiful old fashioned kitchens and living rooms? Whats with all this modern bullshit? This is so much prettier. Everyone should drink from a floral cup and saucer and have a tea cosy on their tea pot. Amen.

Urban Outfitters I love you. I just wish I could always afford your beautiful creations.

Im going to take this opportunity to mention Lucy and the caterpillar a singer from Hebden Bridge, who is adorable. She writes her own music, owns her own vintage shop, AND most importantly shes a big fan of Nick Drake (always a plus). Heres the link to my favourite song by her - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WKkQHMAOqw

I think I have let myself down, I told myself this WILL NOT be a lesbian blog. Slowly, more and more suspiciously dyky photos are appearing, LAST LESBIAN POST FOR A WHILE. I realise for all my thousands of blog viewers this must be devastating news, therefore follow these links to get your fix. http://themostcake.co.uk/ - http://liquorinthefront.tumblr.com/ - http://www.channel4.com/programmes/sugar-rush/4od - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk3NwGSeXQw

I love tattoos.

Im pretty obessessed with stalking Madonnas old music videos at the moment (the 80's ones). I love her style. I think im one of the few out there who likes her new stuff aswell. I must admit ive never bought a Madonna album, but I definatly think its time I bag myself a greatest hits album. Ive been a huge fan of 'Vogue' since I was around twelve. Ive also enjoyed singing 'Like a virgin' at karaoke every now and again, thinks its time to pay the old bird something in return.

My latest music obsession is Giant Drag. Plus Annie Hardy is adorable.

It was my 19th birthday on the 30th of august and I had an amazing birthday! I went to Manchester (canal street) for the first time which was quite an experience. I had a night out in Halifax (of course) and I had a house party. I think I want to be be 19 forever, i'm terrified of the big 2 0!

These are my recent CD buys. All this lot cost me £15, Giant Drag and Sex Pistols were second hand from CeX, and Nick Drake and The Smiths from HMV.

I love Lily Allen at the moment, i'm going through a listening to 'Lily Allen's music solidly' phase. I love 'Littlest things', 'Straight to hell', 'Smile', 'LDN', 'Not fair' and 'Who'd have known'. She is one the most most beautiful women ever, and I even love the way she used to dress with her gold jewellry and her dress and trainers.

I am currently drinking strawberry and mango tea from this beautiful cup and saucer, I think I love it.

I just bought this beaut form Urban Outfitters today, £24. They have some really cute ones in at the moment.

This rainbow just appeared outside my house, it was the most perfect rainbow i've ever seen.

I love Bombay Bicycle Clubs' new album. Its adorable.

I found these old pictures of Halifax on a facebook fan page. These pictures are of the Peoples park in Halifax, I love the park there. Its next door to my college, so sometimes in our lunchbreak we sit there eating our dinner, its lovely, just ignore the rats, but surely thats just reminding us its Halifax.

But not every heart belongs to any other

You and I, You and I are meant to be

I'm the one for you, You're the one for me

You love me as much as I do

When you look at me and we're skin to skin

I want you so Please come in

And you love me more and more

And my love grows up with you

And you kiss me more and more

And I kiss you, tooAnd I kiss you, too

Isn't it funny, one day everything is perfect with the one you love, then the next you wonder what the fuck happened. Love is certainly blind.